> Babby Jebus?

Its not funny or interesting anymore. Instead its just a sad reminder about your failed, pathetic life, that you continue to piss away, drooling on the internet in a mindless self perpetuating cycle of OCD that is reinforced by repetitious f2 posts. You feel the need to share that cycle with others, which is tantamount to you sitting in the corner, rocking back and forth, singing "Brown bear, brown bear" until someone forcibly medicates you and smacks your bottom.

Please, log off, and get help. This is not a healthy reaction to life. It indicates a serious problem. I'm not sure what sort of abuse you suffered, or what trauma you lived through, that drove you to this point, but, it  doesn’t matter. You can get help, there are places and specialists that have devoted their lives to aiding people just like you.

you can make a break from your sad, failed life, and live something approaching like a normal life. You may never be totally human, but, you can at least experience society in a context outside of a computer monitor.

- your F2 friend.